it’s 01:16am and realistically i have another 3 hours until i fall asleep. if you had to name one film that made you think about your life differently in some way (no matter how insignificant), which film pops into your head first?
I know I haven’t updated in a very, very long time but I’d just like to say that I got into Nottingham University! A-Levels were beyond stressful and were the bane of my life but now they’re over forever and I’m going to university. I actually bloody well did it!
As I type this, my mum is currently planning on all the trips she’s going to take to Nottingham (every weekend she says) and how many towels I’m going to need.
I hope that if you received exam results today or applied for university, that you’re happy with the outcome and if not, don’t worry about it! Grades don’t reflect who you are, they reflect a single performance on a single day of your life. Things have a way of sorting themselves out for the best.
As contradictory as this is probably going to sound, I’ve decided to carry on posting only when something lovely and big has happened in my life.
So, here goes. I’ve been given an offer from Nottingham University! It’s my first choice so I wouldn’t mind at all if any of the other universities I applied to didn’t want me. My mum’s happy because it’s only two hours away by train, and she really enjoyed the campus when we went (I think she’s planning weekly visits already).
I met John and Hank Green on Sunday! I went to a talk John was holding about The Fault in Our Stars (if you haven’t read it already, PLEASE do), and Hank was there too to sing many of his brilliant songs - Book Eight is definitely my favourite. The two hour wait for the signing was more than worth it for the short time I got to talk to them both, where I mentioned how I brought my mum with me and she now thinks they’re incredibly funny, to which John said he was happy that people of other generations like him too.
This Saturday I’m off to France for the week to see my French exchange and work in a primary school. I think I’ll miss my dogs the most. Them and beans on toast.
I swear, my life has never been this exciting before.
I’ve been on this website for just over three years now, and in that time I’ve met wonderful people and discovered some brilliant things (I owe Breaking Bad to you all). I was 15 when I made my very first Tumblr and I’m almost 18 now. I shared my opinions, advice, my loves and my heartaches. I feel like I’ve changed and grew more than I could ever have imagined, and I owe part of that to all of you. I’m not going to delete my blog because I would undoubtedly regret it moments later, I’m sure of it. Instead, I’m not going to post anymore (don’t be surprised if I get the sudden urge to share something with you), but I’ll check up on my favourite blogs every once in a while. I hope you all have lives full of kindness and laughter.
“I will love you as the iceberg loves the ship, and the passengers love the lifeboat, and the lifeboat loves the teeth of the sperm whale, and the sperm whale loves the flavour of naval uniforms. I will love you as a child loves to overhear the conversations of its parents, and the parents love the sound of their own arguing voices, and as the pen loves to write down the words these voices utter in a notebook for safekeeping. I will love you as a shingle loves falling off a house on a windy day and striking a grumpy person across the chin, and as an oven loves malfunctioning in the middle of roasting a turkey. I will love you as an airplane loves to fall from a clear blue sky and as an escalator loves to entangle expensive scarves in its mechanisms. I will love you as a wet paper towel loves to be crumpled into a ball and thrown at a bathroom ceiling and as an eraser loves to leave dust in the hairdos of people who talk too much. I will love you as a cufflink loves to drop from its shirt and explore the party for itself and as a pair of white gloves loves to slip delicately into the punchbowl. I will love you as the taxi loves the muddy splash of a puddle and as a library loves the patient tick of a clock.”—Lemony Snicket
Yes! Amidst all the chaos of exams and applying to university, I turn 18 on March 15th so I’m most likely going to have a party with all my friends and family. I’m also going to see John and Hank Green(!!!) in London to hear him talk about The Fault in Our Stars. And then a week after that I’m off to France to stay with my French Exchange (spending Valentine’s Day in France can finally be crossed off my bucket list). For my mum’s birthday I’m going to take her to Rome in the summer, which I’m more excited about than anything else because she hasn’t been on holiday for around seven years, and she’s dreamed about going to Rome since she was my age. And she does so much for me, so it’ll be nice to show her how much she means to me (as incredibly soppy as that sounds). Most of all though, I hope this year’s a good one.*
*If nothing else, I’m praying that we finally have series three of Sherlock.
This is my third New Year’s Eve on Tumblr and I’m finally spending the night with my friends (and possibly drinking a little too much). I hope you all have a great night, whether you spend it with your family, friends or watching another episode of Breaking Bad (I may be a tiny bit envious of you if you are).
Thank you for sticking with me for this long, and more importantly, I wish you all a brilliant and beautiful 2013.
“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.”—Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.
“Whatever you do today or the rest of your days, a gentle memo that 99% of what you stand in line to buy ends up in a landfill while the landfill of your soul begs for something much more everlasting and extravagant.”—Lisa Factora-Borchers